Lost

So I have absolutely positively no idea what direction my life is going right now. I feel useless... I can't find a good job... not one that allows me to be even the TINIEST bit creative. I wonder why I bothered going to college if my degree and my course of study got me nowhere. Shame on me for picking such a stupid, uncertain field. I mean, sure, I could move to Los Angeles and be someone's bitch and work my way up the un-corporate entertainment ladder.
But I don't want to. I'm content with my life in the suburbs, with my family and friends nearby, and with plans to soon move and have a home with Dave. I have given up my need to work in TV, but I still think that it shouldn't be this fucking hard for me to find a creative/communications-driven job. I keep finding these postings for jobs for which I would be PERFECT, but of course, I have no connections to connect me to them. Just the fleeting hope that someone will pick my online resume out from the hundreds of others that I'm sure have been submitted for that particular position.
There have GOT to be jobs out there that won't bore me to death, that will allow me to make enough money to get by and maybe then some...
My personal life is far more important to me than my career... which is why I've stuck it out at this shithole for so long. However, I would like to at least be challenged or at least motivated SOMEWHAT at work, and not dread waking up just to pick up the phone to talk to a bunch of idiots all day long who don't really give a shit what I'm selling them or talking about anyway...
UGH.

At least LOST is on tonight. It's the one night of the week anymore that I look forward to... and lately even THAT has been letting me down. C'mon assholes, it's the November Sweeps! Keep your fans engaged!!!!!!!!