To Jen:

Every single IM conversation between us is the same. I know you're sad, I know you're hurt. I wish I could help. But talking to him 100000 times a day and playing his game is not going to help. Texting one another five times a minute, going back and forth, I hate you, I love you... what does that accomplish? You jump like a bunny when the phone rings... God forbid you miss a call or txt from him... then what? You shady bitch, you dishonest selfish bitch... that's the shit he throws at you! You are none of the above, but you have taken to believing him when he slings that slanderous crap at you! That is not you, Jen! Stand the fuck up for yourself!

I think you like it. You like the attention. He rarely gives it to you otherwise, so his constant checking up, his constant attempts to control you, in a sick and twisted way, please you. I know you don't like the feeling sad part... but you're so used to being unhappy with him, I'm not sure you'd even know how to deal if things were good.

And this dude Nate, and Jimi that you keep talking about... why not give them a shot? You are a dreamer, and they seem to share the same dream, the same passion for the unknown, the same frivolous love of life and imagination and hopeless romance that you do. HE doesn't. He never will, and he will only pretend to until he knows he's got you under lock and key again.
He envies you, he despises your happiness and holds it against you by accusing you of being dishonest, shady, etc. And you sit there and take it! You don't defend yourself, you just relinquish your self-confidence and let him make you feel awful. Don't you get sick of that?

I feel guilty being happy lately when I talk to you. I feel like I should share in your despair. Because misery loves company. But I can't. And your indecision is tearing you apart... which it tends to do. Situations like these are not easy. But Christ Almighty, Jen... think for yourself for once. Think of your own happiness, needs, wants, desires, dreams... not of the fear of being alone and unloved and lonely forever. Because you will never be any of those things. You have an aura about you that is completely and totally irresistible. You will always find a way. I have faith in you in that, and I love you dearly but for the love of God Jen... take care of yourself for once and quit worrying about him.

Ok I'm done. If you ever read this, I want you to know I wrote this with the best of intentions. I love you so much and want to see you happy again. I want you to be Jen again, not George's Jen. I am so proud of you for what you've accomplished in your life, especially in the last year with the business and everything... I just see such great things for you and he is holding you back and that makes me sad. But it's like I've said a thousand times before and will say a thousand times again.... whatever you choose to do, I will support you. But for God sake... choose SOMETHING. xoxoxoxoxoxo